day 5: late starts and reunions

My morning was a flop/non-existent. I woke up around 5am not tired at all. Sigh what a problem. Jet-lag is kicking my butt. So after trying anf failing to go back to sleep I decided to make myself some cereal, and dude uhhhh who knew that original Special K here is like the red berry Special K in the states but with out the strawberrys?? I wanted the rice krispy Special K!! Ugh this was annoying but I ate it anyways, with a fork because I had no spoon and then I sat there and was still hungry so I made myself some noodles. A whole meal at 7am yum. Well I went back upstairs and after reading for a bit and watching youtube I went back to sleep and woke up at 4pm....yikes. Mega yikes. You know it is hard to get up around here when it is prepetually dreary. The sun has never reached me here.

Last night I deleted instagram on my phone becuase of their horrible new update that makes your pictures rectangles not squares. I find this to be personally offensive and horrifc really makes me sick looking at it so I had to let it go. Thinking of creating an email subsciption for these blog updates who knows. I hate all instagram updates. I hate instagram it makes me feel like this is the end of days. I do love my feed though. A lot of love went into it. But if they are gonna do stupid things like that on an app meant for aesthetics then I will leave.

Anywho I got up and got ready to back to IKEA. Lets try this again folks! And also to meet Irene!!! yipeeeeeee very very exciting. On my way to Ikea I made my first underground mistake by missing my stop, I was distracted. Oh well. I get there and eat another IKEA hot dog (unfortunatly their ice cream machine is out sadge). I make my various returns and give Irene a big hug and meet their friend Carris (?spelling?) and we set off into the maze that is IKEA.

Unsurprisingly we get lost a couple times, seriously I am not convinced that IKEA isn't some magical entity designed to trap you there forever. Think the Commemeration Gallery in I am in Eskew. Great podcast by the way if you want something narrative to listen to. Well I get the stuff I need finally!! I also buy meatballs and mashed potatoes which I might make after I am finished writing this. Irene and Carris both get hot dogs and they agree that the ikea dogs are quite strange. And what is up with unsalted fries? Is that a UK thing?

Hot dog lovers!

It was great to see Irene, weird to see a friend finally. It was like everything was totally normal like we're not across the globe...When I wake up in the middle of the night I have an inexpicable feeling or temporariness and unreality like I am not where I should be. I am in a strange hotel and tomorrow I will go home to my own bed. Hm. I'm sure this room will start to feel like mine eventually, but my bed and home and at school is so much more comfortable. Also observation: putting double beds in a corner makes them feel infinetly smaller. But I don't have enough space to move it. Oh well. At least I have a normal looking duvet cover now and a pillow that isn't 2 cm thick.

I was just thinking that I totally fell off writing my fanfiction even though I was halfway through the second chapter. I should do that tonight. If I'm being honest there are a couple things I have been putting off like paying tuition and housing blah blah and figuring out my time tables and fafsa and some other stuff. Grrrr i hate doing things I have to do. But in better news I have a plan for tomorrow. I was purusing the #graveyard tag on tumblr today and saw one in London that when I looked up was only a 14 minute walk from me!!! And it's so beautiful guys I am so excited I am walking there tomorrow. Also tomrrow I think me and Irene are gonna go to a club or bar. I'm glad I brought one club outfit with me. A bar seems pretty chill though. Really I am only interested in going to gay or lesbian clubs. I mean I'm down to go to a normal one but there's nothing for me there besides avoiding people. You know? I don't really wanna be approached by men that sounds exhausting lol not that they would approach me anyways I don't think I have the look guys are wanting these days. Speaking of golly I am so tired of fashion and looking cool and the way everyone dresses gay now. hmph. I don't even want people to look at me and think oh she is cool. That is total bs. Because honestly I rarely think people wearing those kind of clothes are cool on face value. I wanna wear what I think is cool, I don't need to signal my beliefs or anything to randos. Although I would like to be percieved as lesbian, but people are so dumb I dunno if they can. Sorry I don't mean to hate on people. All that being said, I love clothes and as stated in previous entry would love to go thrifting soon.

Stepheny Green stop

After walking to the library the other day I have developed an affinity for the area I am living in. It is quite pretty. I wonder what kind of friends I will make around here...

P.S. been missing my guitar will try to get one next month off fb marketplace if budget allows.

P.P.S. Just updated my fanfic with chapter 2 yipee!